so big.

Julianna. We went to the batting cages today and I was watching you swing and practice and I couldn't help but thinking of how impressive it was watching you hit. Not because you're exceptional at batting but watching your confidence and self worth just swell. I could tell you felt very powerful and capable. I love watching you find that strength inside, seeing you bloom. I hope you can always feel that. Find that power. I couldn't have felt prouder of you than I did watching you swing. I love you so much and think your an amazing kid.

Beck. Gosh your getting so big. And cute and sweet. I am so in love with you. Tomorrow we are getting your pictures done. I am so excited!

Katie. We will learn your letters. Both the big and the little. I need to get some reinforcements. I am so worried about what you are going to be like as a teenager. Lord you running circles around me know I shudder to think of what you'll do as you grow!

Kia. Back to high drama and mischief with Chelsea. The two of you together can be trouble. I hope your careful. And the judgemental part of me wants to tell you that Taylor is a dirt bag. I could tell just by seeing him on the front porch where you let him in while grandma is at the temple. Puffy coat with letters and a stupid tall hat. As you like yourself more you'll find a whole 'nother category of man out there. Oh how I fear you'll get pregnant. Oh if only you knew my worry, wait I take that back if you knew my worry you'd be a mom and right now you SHOULD NOT be a mom. I still love you. I just wish you loved you. You are good enough. no matter how much I tell you that now you can't hear me. That simply breaks my heart. I didn't tell you enough while you still believed me. While you still listened to me. I am so sorry for that. You are good enough. Please hear me.